Sometimes we have to make choices and sometimes they affect a lot more than we ever knew they would. My choice is being with that boy for the past 8 months of my life (whatever you want to define “with” as) was one of the most influential things I could’ve done. Just think about it. It changed how much sleep I got at night, how many people I talked to, how I acted at parties, how much time I spent studying or reading the bible, what I had to think about and be concerned with, people from his school that I spoke to or had introduced into my life, people from my home town that were put into my life, my relationship with my theatre teacher and what he thinks about me/knows about me, and so much more! I’m not sure if I regret it or not. I’m not sure if I’d take it back or not. Right now, all of me would like to scream, “YES I WOULD TAKE IT BACK” but that’s probably not true at all. I was happy at times and a mess at other times. I would’ve been the same with anyone that I’d been with. Maybe it’s not all his fault. Like I’ve said before, every girl gets into the relationship that she wants to be in. That’s so true for me. I think I’m just a mess all the time.
Maybe a beautiful mess though…sometimes